THE TROLL TEAR
A Children's Story for Samhain

The night was very dark, with a Full Moon hanging in the cloud-filled
sky above. The air was crisp with the feel of late Autumn and the
doorway between the worlds was wide open. Carved pumpkins sat on the
porches of the houses in the little town, and the laughter of children dressed in costumes could be heard from the streets.

It was a sad time for Beth as she climbed the hill behind her house. In
her arms was her cat and friend Smoky, carefully wrapped in his favorite
blanket. A little grave was already dug on the hill, waiting, for Smoky
had died that day.

"Do you want me to go with you?" Beth's father had asked.

"I dug his grave beside MacDougal's at the top of the hill." Beth
clearly remembered when their dog MacDougal had died after being hit by
a car.

"No, I want to go by myself," she answered.

Beth stopped at the top of the hill and knelt beside the little grave.
She carefully laid Smoky's blanket-wrapped form in the earth and covered
it with dirt, laying several large rocks on the top. Then she cried and cried.

"Oh, Smoky, I miss you so much?" Beth looked up at the Moon, tears
streaming down her cheeks. "Why did you die?"

"It was his time to rejoin the Mother," said a deep, gentle voice in the darkness.

"Who said that?" Beth looked around but saw no one.

"Dying is part of the cycle of life, you know." One of the boulders on
the hill stirred into life.

"Who are you?" The moonlight shone down on the little woman, and Beth
could see she was not human.

"I'm a troll-wife," said the creature as she came to sit across from
Beth. "This is a sad night for both of us, girl. I, too, came to this
hill to bury a friend." The troll-wife wiped a crystal tear from her
cheek. "The squirrel was very old. Still it makes me
sad."

Beth stared at the troll-wife. The little woman was the color of rock in
the moonlight, her hair like long strands of moss, her bright eyes like
shining crystals. She wore a dress woven of oak leaves and tree bark.

"The squirrel and I lived together for a long time," the troll-wife
said. "We often talked to your cat when he was hunting here on the hill.
Smoky and I were friends. I shall miss him, too." The little woman
patted Smoky's grave gently, " Sleep well, little friend. When you are
rested, we shall talk together again."

"But he's dead," Beth said, her voice choked with tears.

"Child, this is Samhain. Don't you know the ancient secrets of this
sacred time of year?' The troll-wife motioned for Beth to come and sit
beside her. "It is true that our friends have gone into a world where we
can no longer physically touch them, but the Mother has given us other
ways of communicating with them. We can do this any time, but the time of Samhain is the easiest."

"I don't understand how this can be done," Beth said, "or why Samhain
makes it easier."

"At this time of year," the troll-wife answered, "the walls between this
world and the world of souls and spirits are very thin. If we are quiet
and listen, we can hear our loved ones and they can hear us. We talk,
not with spoken words, but with the heart and mind."

"Isn't that just imagination?" Beth looked down at Smoky's grave, tears
once more coming into her eyes. "Like my thinking I can feel MacDougal
get up on my bed at night like he used to?"

"Sometimes it is, but mostly it is not imagination, only our friends
come to see us in their spirit bodies." The troll-wife reached up her
hand and patted something Beth couldn't see on her shoulder, "Like my
friend the raven. He is here now."

Beth looked hard and saw a thin form of hazy moonlight on the troll-
wife's shoulder. "I've seen something like that at the foot of my bed
where MacDougal used to sleep." She whispered. "I thought I was
dreaming." She jumped as something nudged her arm. When
she looked down, nothing was there.

The troll-wife smiled, "Close you eyes and think of MacDougal," she said
"He has been waiting a long time for you to see him."

Beth closed her eyes and, at once, the form of her little dog came into
her mind. His tail wagged with happiness. She felt a wave of love come
from him, and she sent her love back. Then she felt the dog lie down
against her leg.

"Can I do this with Smoky?" Beth asked.

"Not yet," the troll-wife answered. "He needs to sleep a while and rest.
Then he will come to you. This gives Smoky time to adjust to his new
world, and you time to grieve for him. It is not wrong to grieve, but we
must not grieve forever."

"I never thought of it that way," Beth said. "It's kind of like they
moved away, and we can only talk to them on the phone."

"It is this way with all creatures, not just animals." The troll-wife
stood up and held out a hand to Beth. "Will you join me, human girl?
Although I buried my friend squirrel this night, I still must dance and
sing to all my friends and ancestors who have gone
on their journey into the other world. For this is a time to honor the ancestors."

Beth joined the troll-wife in the ancient slow troll dances around the
top of the little hill in the moonlight. She watched quietly while the
troll-wife called out troll-words to the four directions, words Beth
couldn't understand. Deep in her heart the girl felt the power of the
strange words and knew they were given in honor and love by the little troll-wife.

When the troll-wife was finished with her ritual, she hugged Beth. "Go
in peace, human child" she said, "And remember what I have told you
about the ancient secret of Samhain."

"I will," Beth answered. "Will I ever see you again?"

"Whenever the Moon is Full, I will be here," the little troll-wife said.
"And especially at Samhain."

"I wish I had something to give you." Beth hugged the little woman. "You
have taught me so much." She felt the tears come to her eyes again.

"Let us exchange tears for our lost friends." The troll-wife reached upa
rough finger and caught a tear as if fell from Beth's eye. The tear
glistened on her finger. The troll-wife gently touched her finger to her
cloak, and Beth's tear shone there like a
diamond in the moonlight.

Beth reached up carefully and caught one of the troll-wife's tears as it
slid down her rough cheek. It turned into a real crystal in her hand.

"Remember the secret of Samhain, and remember me," the troll-wife said
softly as she disappeared into the darkness. Beth walked back down the
hill, the crystal clutched in her hand. Her father was waiting on her on
the porch.

"Are you all right?" her father asked as he gave Beth a hug.

"I will be," she answered. She opened her hand under the porch light and
saw a perfect, tear-shaped crystal lying there.

"Did you find something?" her father asked.

"A troll-tear," Beth answered, and her father smiled. For he also knew
the little troll-wife and the secret of Samhain.

Author unknown

This story was e-mailed to me by the PaganFolkes group.  It really moved me.  I really wish I knew who the author was, that person deserves a lot of credit for the story, but enjoy it anyway, I know I did.

 

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